Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Friends? Your ears must hear this! Your eyes must see!


To us who have said, “Ceremony, ceremony, I’ve found you empty.” To us who have said, “Triumph, triumph, I’m the result of pain” To us who have said, “Revolt, revolt, I will make change for I’ve rejected the irrelevance of religion.” To us who have been skillfully, single-mindedly trained to look for one thing: pleasure and found that we just don’t make the cut. We have searched, we have studied, we have consumed and toiled. What do we have to show for it sisters and brothers?

Confusion sore to have life.

Who is this who comes from the rehabs, street corners, prison cells, orphanages, nursing homes, hospital beds?
 “You’re cries are ever before me. I’ve known your late-night anxieties, dead-end games and fruitless labors for I have attended you night and day. Fighting that you would let me in and would then be justified by my unceasing contending for you. Believe me dear heart; I was the answer to your question before the universe was made through my breath. Your heart was created to be satisfied only in me. Materials are only band aids to the problems your heart is undergoing. Walk with me and you’ll find true life in much more: my spirit within you healing, renewing, saving you closer to Me.”

Too good to be true. We are jaded beyond repair. Stayed in contentment with lies, entertained by fools, reduced because what else is there. I know what I see. That is why I ask: is hope relevant? I will fight down anything that teases my wounds with talk of healing. SHOW ME TRUTH!!!!

“You give yourselves away so freely as if you were worth nothing. I made myself the payment for you the one I love. I saw the brokenness that had captured you, I was there to see the darkness that drowned the deeds you wanted known other to see, I heard the preoccupations of crowded hearts and minds. I was JEALOUS. I want you! So I allowed the consequences, shame, and wrath of all the times you were disqualified to overcome me so that I could call you mine! I beckon you, come, fit into Me; put your life in mine and I will make sense of it all. I offer you all of me to empty you of all the, “but’s” all the distractions, to heal your wounds with my words that will soothe over and over again. Give me everything and I will call you Mine, beloved, bestowing on you glories not of your making. Successes you cannot yourself reach. Love you cannot conjure. Power with selfless sight. Your hungers will be trained to remember what it is to be filled with Me! Sin no more! Change your mind and all the impossibilities will be made possible as you find rest in my name: Jesus Christ.”

You decide which cup to drink. Only one abounds with life.

Monday, July 23, 2012

I'm Calling you OUT!

I was reminded of the intensity of this thorn in my side today. Ouch! Wounded but frustrated. Forget self-pity I want to OVER COME! I'm tired of being overwhelmed, strung along by the heart, so easily wounded. GOD! Teach me please. Teach me to move and be for your glory. I've given way to fear and I need to learn the rhythms of only your love again. God calm the waves that keep overcoming me. There has been so much going on with me lately and with no good reason God I feel like I'm fighting to stand firm in a battle of the heart and mind. Over spiritual I'm called again and again and God you are SPIRIT! What have you called me to live by but your Spirit!? What is the problem here. I've been labeled. What do you say Father, Creator of my being. For only you hold the key to this creation only you hold the key to my identity. Inside this aching vessel is your incorruptible most holy seed.Have mercy on my emotional need Lord. Find me obsessed and assured of your presence and plan for me.  You Lord are my justification Jesus. Inadequacy overwhelms me and I look in the face of paths gone before me, colleagues embarking on their own and the demands and giants I'm to battle. God, Father, JESUS! What say you as I stand trembling about to sojourn my own way? For I am weak, but you call me beauty wiping away my shame. You speak a better word. You speak the last. How Jesus, how can you comfort me with words so inconceivable to me. You say I have ravished your heart? You say that I am unblemished!! Jesus! speak these words again and again to me. The truth the Light, my soul longs to know and rest assured of your heart for me. I know that does not come without cautions, continuing commitment and fighting but God, you are good and I'd rather push and seek and learn to exercise your will, than relinquish and submit to the oppressor, ever near and attacking. Down with the accusations in the name of the one who claims me:Jesus Christ is His glorious name and you shall not speak these lies to one whom He deems his! Those who wait will receive good things. Those who find refuge in you will find joy. In this season let me continue Father. Send me deeper into the realities your Son kissed us with. Adversity. Sift me that only Truth remains. Future. Find me always confident of plans of hope. May I be resolute in my love for you my Savior and abundance springing forth from inside of me. Sharpen my mind Father. I submit to your holy, wise Spirit Father.