I'm Calling you OUT!

I was reminded of the intensity of this thorn in my side today. Ouch! Wounded but frustrated. Forget self-pity I want to OVER COME! I'm tired of being overwhelmed, strung along by the heart, so easily wounded. GOD! Teach me please. Teach me to move and be for your glory. I've given way to fear and I need to learn the rhythms of only your love again. God calm the waves that keep overcoming me. There has been so much going on with me lately and with no good reason God I feel like I'm fighting to stand firm in a battle of the heart and mind. Over spiritual I'm called again and again and God you are SPIRIT! What have you called me to live by but your Spirit!? What is the problem here. I've been labeled. What do you say Father, Creator of my being. For only you hold the key to this creation only you hold the key to my identity. Inside this aching vessel is your incorruptible most holy seed.Have mercy on my emotional need Lord. Find me obsessed and assured of your presence and plan for me.  You Lord are my justification Jesus. Inadequacy overwhelms me and I look in the face of paths gone before me, colleagues embarking on their own and the demands and giants I'm to battle. God, Father, JESUS! What say you as I stand trembling about to sojourn my own way? For I am weak, but you call me beauty wiping away my shame. You speak a better word. You speak the last. How Jesus, how can you comfort me with words so inconceivable to me. You say I have ravished your heart? You say that I am unblemished!! Jesus! speak these words again and again to me. The truth the Light, my soul longs to know and rest assured of your heart for me. I know that does not come without cautions, continuing commitment and fighting but God, you are good and I'd rather push and seek and learn to exercise your will, than relinquish and submit to the oppressor, ever near and attacking. Down with the accusations in the name of the one who claims me:Jesus Christ is His glorious name and you shall not speak these lies to one whom He deems his! Those who wait will receive good things. Those who find refuge in you will find joy. In this season let me continue Father. Send me deeper into the realities your Son kissed us with. Adversity. Sift me that only Truth remains. Future. Find me always confident of plans of hope. May I be resolute in my love for you my Savior and abundance springing forth from inside of me. Sharpen my mind Father. I submit to your holy, wise Spirit Father.