Passion! Vigor! Ministry! Vision! Dreaming! Striving! Crying! Standing! GOD There's something to be said about dogmatic faithfulness that claims Spirit and Truth but relies only on self-strength. Father, what good is a ministry I can offer myself? The Word may be used, people may be touched, physical changes may take place BUT ;alksdnf;lkasd;f ... what do you see my Father?? What pain do we carry around like our precious occupants?? What habits do we deny? What elephants do we avoid?? Why haven't I asked you?? Forget my power! Forget my vanity! In the name of Jesus, shed truth on my lies that once and for all Your Holy, Beautiful, Glorious, honorable, name may be on display!! Father, I want Your Bread of Life! Jesus is His precious honorable unseen name. He who is real food I have had no courage to consume. Oh Father, I pray with all that is in me!! Teach me to consume Your son so that on the day of tribulation, I may not shrink back but stand and stand firm in Your presence and on Your sure foundation! In my bullheaded stubbornness, I have gradually, gradually been surrendering but Father, I want to completely stumble on Your Cornerstone Son that my heart would learn Your glory and Your lordship. Oh Father, that Your strength would overwhelm my stark weakness!! I ask for strength like my forefathers but individual to myself! I worship the same God but follow a calling specific to my life! Father, Father, Father!!! I will not let go until you bless me! I've lived on crumbs and I'm Your daughter!!!! I ask for blessing within that I would have a holiness to bless my brothers/sisters with. Give me a new name Papa! I'm not my past. I'm not my pain. I'm not a slave to fear! Make me Big on the inside that I might do something bigger than me Papa! How can I run away?? You are faithful! Even Jonah was given Your grace to fulfill His calling. May my heart grow in repentance that my hands would stay cleansed and my eyes would stay on my Portion!! JESUS! I don't have to go searching for You Jesus, whether it be up in the heavens or down on earth Your words are soo close! Your way out is always there up under temptation. Even as I wait on You and Your words and Your daily nourishment I'm not alone! You have lifted me up on wings like eagles. I have carried the law, sweated under an impossible burden I pretended I could carry and now I hear your voice, not in the earthquake, not in the fire, not in the monstrous, Glorious, power, but in the humble whisper, "come find me." My humble, humble, honorable Lord beckons, " I'm coming.... bring to light things you've hidden in darkness... wait." How do I give you everything in my hands Papa? I long. I open my mouth. Your more....
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